Inner Guide.. !!

- Keep Calm and Stay Ziddi (stubborn).
- Silence is God of language. :P
- Smile has music. Play it often.
- People,who are flexible, can not be broken.

--- to be continued..
-Ziddi 

Nice Bracelets !!

Job site : Centennial hall  UMN
Temperature : -20C ( important to mention :p)
Shift  : 7.00 pm to 10 pm (some sunday, Fall 2013)

I went to cover my UDS shift at centennial from the lab. It was snowing heavily outside ,as usual. I walked through the snow. Swiping meal pass card and greeting them with smile was not a tough job, but it became monotonous after sometime and then that "masked smile" disappeared. Suddenly I heard "Nice bracelets". I was quite surprised, I  took the card from her and swiped and said "hi!! how was your day today??" She said  again "It was good,. How are you? You got nice Bracelets " and went inside the dining hall as the next visitor was in queue. Suddenly I got my smile back. It was a not a bracelets, but the "Rakhi" which were given my sisters while I was leaving India for study. I did not untie while Raksha Bandhan was already over two month back. Thanks you very much  my dear sisters for that . That gave me my hidden smile back on my face.,which was not fake :)

अमावस रात में ..!!

अमावस रात में चाहूँ, ज़रा सा झिलमिलाऊँ ...!!

कभी खुद से ही छूप छूप कर,
कभी खुद में ही छूप छूप कर ,
वो तनहा दिल के धड़कन से
अनूठा राग सा पा लूँ....... 

कभी सागर की लहरों में,
कभी बारीश  की बूंदो में,
मगन मझधार में भी चाहूँ,
कि उस तिर को पा लूँ.....

वो सूखे डाल  पेड़ों के ,
वो रूठे पत्ते पेड़ो  से,
पँछी के चहक से भी
ज़रा सा धुन चुरा लाऊँ… 

कभी है साथ हर पल का,
कभी तनहा हूँ मैं कल का,
हर क्षण तो है अपना
कभी यह सोच मुस्काऊ ……

अमावस रात में चाहूँ, ज़रा सा झिलमिलाऊँ…!!

-Ziddi Satya

I'm yours..!!

You are not mine , I m not yours .
But still emotion pours ..........!!

You don't say to love, I also ignore
Still desperately hope floats....!!

You are so busy , even I work day long
Still the crowded deep alone...!!

You say no sweets , I say no rose..
Still heart feels to be with you...!!

You say to slow, even I don't rush
Still the time generating pain.... !!

You are the world, I never said.
Still saying myself to move away..!!

-Ziddi Satya
 wrote on 19th Jan,2014.. first two lines  then could not continue..  lost the rhythm, as i broke my wrist..

but like "Aankhon ki kinwar mein band"  [ http://satyanshuuprakash.blogspot.com/2011/11/blog-post_24.html ] it is combined with atri di's imagination.. further...this time atri di added and completes this..hopefully..:p 

Kabhi khud khota, kabhi rab khota...!!

 

कुछ आहट तेरे जैसा सुनके ,
दिल मन ही मन मुसका देता ..
उस शाम ढले एक गोधुलि में,
तारों का दीप जला देता ..

उन तारों की जगमग से मैं,
एक खोयी रात सजा लेता ..
पर सुबह लगता , वो झिलमिल कर
खुद अपना दर्द मिटा लेता ..

 क्यों आते तारें नभ में जो,
जाना हर सुबहो उनको होता ..
मैं झेल गया हूँ कितने चेहरे ,
कौन है असली ,कौन मुखौटा ..

दिल की एक ख़ुशी की खातिर ,
कभी आंसू रोता, कभी नैना रोता ..
खूब भटकता तेरे पीछे ,
कभी खुद खोता , कभी रब खोता ..!!

--Ziddi Satya

wo thagi naina..!!

वो ठगी नयना..!!

उस धुंधली सी चाह  में...
कब वक़्त मिला था मिलने को..
चलते चलते खो जाता था..
फिर भी तैयार था चलने को..


कभी राह  चला ..कभी राह तका ..
पर मंजिल को तो पाया ना ..
हर बार सुना था दिल का..
पर चुप रह गयी ..वो ठगी नयना..

हर रात तेरे सपनों से मैं ..
इन पलकों को सी लेता था..
फिर दिन चाहे जैसा भी हो..
मस्ती में  जी लेता था..

कुछ ख़्वाब  बुने ..कुछ ख़्वाब दिखा..
कुछ पुरे हुए ... कुछ हो न सका..
मुस्कान भरी कभी ख़्वाबों  में..
तो ,कुछ ख्वाबों से कभी सो न सका..

जिन ख्वाबों से मैं डरता था ..
उन सबकों  मैंने फ़ेंक  दिया ..
वो ख्वाब नहीं सच्चाई थी...
अब पूरा होते देख लिया ....


कभी साथ चला .. कभी छूट गया ..
पर साथ तेरे थी  ..मेरी चैना
नयनो से पढना चाहा  था ..
पर ठगी ही रह गयी.. वो ठगी नैना..






-Ziddi Satya


Ek bar mere ek dost ne mujhse puchha.."aur ..  kaisa chal raha hai..?"
maine jawab diya : "chalne wale ko koi rok nahi sakta..!!"

Alter Ego...!!

      When I first heard this word in my life (in Kolkata), I was not sure this kind of could even exist, just mugged up as a new word. As thousand of new words came into picture when I started  studying in English medium(in class 11th ), so it was merely a word for me. But its meaning is so deep , which I felt sometime later.
      What hits me to write my blog after so long time., even I was not seeing my blog since last 2 months. I dedicated this blog for my poems.which are certainly the words of my heart . So what pushes me to write not a poem , but rather this post...is  "Deja Vu..".yes the movie, not from  hollywood , but made by the guys of IITB ,brought me here to write something. When I first  watched it , I felt ,how boring a movie can be.!! so aweful..
almost ignored , except the first part..Although I liked the way of presentaion (an IITian way..supercool actually). But last year I watched it again..and liked so much . Because I visualize the Alter Ego part there only.
Every one has alter ego, even I have .I have this blog as an alter ego right now. In this routined life , sometime we want to go back in all great memories, where there was no boundary of dreaming and thinking . Unfortunately , we can't . We all show ourselves as happy with what we have and what we are. We all have a mask on our face, which hide our all troubles to share with others . It is very difficult to know what is going on one's heart while you talk to them . There is good dialogue in that movie ..."niether the moonlight is red nor the sunlight"..(like there was a red colored light in Movie Mr. India , through which Anil kapoor could be seen.)  which helps to find the feelings of heart and the problem people are hiding from the world. We all have our own world inside our hearts and we live there only.
A great message from movie:
          There are generally two kind of people in the world: 1  who live in present 2.who live in present for future.But there is a third catagory too.. who live in PAST... they could never be happy inside.

I don't know to have alter ego is good or bad, but sometimes I feel it is the only real friend of person.

-Ziddi Satya